I remember feeling so special. We had friends and family over. He and his friends barbecued this big, huge meal. Then after the sun went down, we carried a watermelon out to the swimming pool. I accidentally dropped the melon and thought for sure that I'd get in trouble. But, instead a watermelon fight broke out and everyone was happy and laughing. Childhood memories are often fuzzy, but it struck me so deeply when I realized that we were probably celebrating his birthday, but he made me feel like it was all for me. I had no idea, and I wish that I could thank him for a memory that I will always cherish.
The finality of death is so hard.