My heart was immediately heavy this morning when I saw the 405 area code on my phone. I knew. My Grandma Hardin passed away last night. I booked flights for Joshua and I to go to Oklahoma this afternoon to attend the service on Sunday. Now, I just feel restless. I feel like I should be doing something, but what? I feel like I should be saying something, but what? Joshua and I have suffered so much loss in these past few years that I just feel numb. Numb and tired. It is hard to imagine a world where my grandma is not just a phone call away.